After the death of the previous emperor, the Empress Dowager became arrogant

Chapter 383 Losing yourself is more desperate than losing your life

Yuan Qing thanked him sincerely, "Mr. Gong, that's wrong. I am so grateful to you that I can't even begin to blame you. If it weren't for Mr. Gong's help, I'm afraid that when we open the door to welcome customers in the future, it will be my customers who will be in danger. This is no small matter for a shop."

Gong Heng's purpose in deliberately approaching him was obvious.

She guessed that if she had not dodged it in time that day and fell down with the broken wood boards, Gong Heng might have suddenly flashed in from the door and caught her just in time.

Yuan Qing: "..."

Wow~ What a clichéd plot of a hero saving a beauty. She was getting goosebumps.

The figure from before had already followed them up and sat in the distance, peeking at them for quite a while.

There were some people between them, so she couldn't see who it was.

She had no interest in continuing to sit like this with Gong Heng, so she simply stood up and said goodbye to him.

When she reached the door, she looked back at the person who was hiding and finally saw her true face.

Shang Rou?

She had never thought that she would be involved with Gong Heng.

Yuan Qing walked to the street and looked up at the place where they had just sat. Gong Heng happened to stick his head out and gave her a kind smile.

Although this trip did not reveal Gong Heng's plans for her, Shang Rou's unexpected appearance brought out the mystery that had been hidden for so long, so this trip was not in vain.

After returning to the shop, Yuan Qing went straight to Jiang Shu's room.

Jiang Shu was studying the blueprints in the house. He was so busy that he didn't even have time to eat the food, which had already gone cold.

"You haven't eaten yet?"

Jiang Shu put down his pen and looked at her with raised eyebrows, "Oh, you still remember to come back. I thought you were bewitched by some pretty boy and forgot the way home."

Yuan Qing was stunned.

Only after Jiang Shu mentioned this did she realize that something was wrong with her.

She thought about it, sat down, looked at Jiang Shu seriously, and asked her: "Am I abnormal recently?"

"It's not just abnormal. I almost thought you were possessed by something." Jiang Shu pushed the food away and leaned forward with his arms. "To be honest, although I have only known you for a few years, in my opinion, you are definitely not the kind of girl who is willing to revolve around men. You have your own ideas and ideals. Even if you have someone in your heart, you will not stop because of someone."

She pushed all the drawings spread out in front of her and pointed with her fingers. "But look, in these few days, let alone helping, you can't even stay here peacefully. Twelve hours a day, except for sleeping time, you are almost always outside, but you are not busy with work. Tell me, why?"

Yuan Qing was left speechless by her words. He rubbed his forehead and seemed quite distressed.

"To be honest, I don't know why."

Just as Jiang Shu said, her attention recently seemed to have been on Gong Heng. Although she was still on guard in her heart, she seemed to be less resistant subconsciously.

She had been looking for excuses to get close to Gong Heng, but in fact, she was just deceiving herself.

Yes, why is this?

She recalled the past few days in a daze, just like a dream. If Jiang Shu hadn't pointed it out, she might have still been trapped in the dream. Now even she felt like she was under a spell.

Black magic?

She was suddenly shocked by the idea.

She had to figure out whether it was because she herself was not firm in her heart or if there was really something abnormal.

Until she figures things out, she won't meet Gong Heng again.

Jiang Shu saw her face suddenly turn pale, and he became a little anxious, "What happened to you?"

"I'll take it easy on myself first, and I'll tell you when I have figured it out."

Jiang Shu stopped talking and just sat with her quietly.

Yuan Qing thought about the incident carefully over and over again, but the more she thought about it, the more her head hurt. The more she thought about it, the more her thoughts would become tangled together like a ball of paste, until she could no longer pull out any details.

No, this is absolutely wrong!

Jiang Shu looked at her strange expression and immediately grabbed her hands. "Don't think about it. If there is anything, we can solve it together slowly. There is no need to rush."

Yuan Qing suddenly opened her eyes, beads of sweat appeared on her forehead. She tried to calm her breathing, held Jiang Shu's hand and said, "No, we can't wait. If it's really as I think, then I absolutely cannot tolerate that happening, even if it means risking my life!"

"But……"

If you lose your life, what's the point of caring about those things?

Yuan Qing's expression slowly relaxed, and a smile appeared on the corners of his pale lips. "Losing myself makes me feel more desperate than losing my life. It may be difficult for you to understand, but this is what I really think."

Jiang Shu gradually calmed down, "What do you need me to do for you?"

"I won't see anyone these days. If someone comes to see me, I'll say I'm somewhere else temporarily and I'm not here. But don't let anyone see anything unusual. Stay the same."

Although she didn't say it explicitly, Jiang Shu knew she was referring to Gong Heng.

"Don't worry about this. Will you stay here from now on?"

Yuan Qing shook his head slightly.

She wanted to check her situation. Now in the capital, there was only one person who could help her.

Yuan Qing suddenly remembered what he heard in the teahouse today, so he asked Jiang Shu: "How much do you know about the Deng family you mentioned last time?"

Jiang Shu thought for a moment and said, "It's not that much, just a little bit. Why, you heard it too?"

Yuan Qing nodded, "Not only did I hear it, I also learned some more eye-catching news."

While looking out the window in the teahouse today, she learned some details about the Deng family from some tea drinkers.

After the incident at Qi Jue Fang, Deng Chong continued to indulge in prostitution and showed no signs of restraint.

However, after the news spread among the people that Miss Deng was still alive, Deng Chong became like a madman and started asking around everywhere.

When Liu married into the Deng family, Miss Deng was still alive, but she was in frail health and never saw outsiders.

According to the servants of the Deng family, Deng Chong and Miss Deng had a very good relationship. Sometimes when the weather was warm, they would go out for fun together.

Deng Chong at that time was not as rough as he is now. He had a handsome face and was full of literary talent. Everyone who saw him would praise him as a graceful gentleman. He was also a well-known young man in the capital.

When she mentioned the Deng family before, she felt a little regretful about Deng Chong.

She wasn't particularly curious about the Deng family's secrets, but she felt that the sudden emergence of this matter was a little odd.

No wind blows out of nowhere.

"Have you heard of Miss Deng when you were in the capital before?" Yuan Qing asked.

"Although I haven't seen her, I have heard of her. At that time, many people said that Miss Deng and the young lady from the Prime Minister's Mansion were known as the 'two beauties of the capital'. Their reputations were no less than yours."

Later, for some unknown reason, he suddenly died of illness without any warning, and many people were deeply saddened by this.

"Well, have you met her mother?"

"Her mother is Miss Xie, right? I only saw her from a distance and didn't see her closely, but later someone said that she looked very similar to Xie Wan. Looking at Xie Wan's appearance, I can roughly imagine her."

……

Yuan Qing changed her identity to that of a concubine and quietly entered the palace in an inconspicuous carriage.

Empress Dowager Yuan simply invited her brother and sister-in-law into the palace so that the whole family could sit together for a gathering.

Sitting at the table, Yuan Qing's memory seemed to go back to the time when he had just traveled through time. It was also like this, with the family sitting together and laughing.

In the blink of an eye, so many years have passed.

A gentle voice fell beside him: "What are you thinking about?"

Yuan Qing came to his senses, turned around and buried his head in his mother's arms.

Lou Yin was startled, and kept stroking her daughter's back, "What's wrong? Did you feel wronged outside?"

"No." Yuan Qing took a deep breath, and his throat suddenly felt choked. "I just suddenly felt very sorry for you. I haven't taken the initiative to visit you for such a long time. I feel sad."

Lou Yin's eyes also became moist, and he stroked her hair again and again.

To say that I have no complaints would be a lie.

But this is her daughter. She has already found it hard to forgive herself for not having her grow up with her. Now that her wish has come true, she dare not ask for anything else.

The children have grown up, and she lets them do whatever they want to do. She doesn't stop them. She just hopes to see them more in her lifetime. She feels very content.

"Silly child, we hope that you can be well." Lou Yin wiped the tears from her daughter's face and said with a smile, "You are so old, but you still want to stay in your mother's arms. Look, your father is laughing at you."

Yuan Bo's grinning mouth suddenly retracted.