in2ebook Chapter 93 I am a selfish person
Chapter 93 I am a selfish person
Yu Shen entered the Qin residence and was going to meet Qin Mingxuan. When he asked the servant, he found out that Qin Mingxuan and his wife had gone to the other garden. Yu Shen also knew that the missing eldest daughter of the Qin family had already entered the capital.
He also heard from his father that the master was still very cautious and did not directly take the child into the Qin Mansion. After all, the child was stolen and hidden by the evil people for so many years. Who knows what happened? It is still necessary to be cautious.
But if you listen to your father carefully, you will think this time it is almost correct, because a lot of the information matches, not to mention that the little girl is said to look very similar to Xinhe.
Yu Shen came here today because he was actually a little worried about Xinhe. Last time at the Queen's place, he noticed that Xinhe was a little bothered when she mentioned her sister who was coming back.
But Yu Shen also believed that Xin He was not lying when she said that in front of the Queen. The two grew up together, so Yu Shen was very clear about Xin He's character.
She shouldn't mean to dislike or be jealous of her sister, but this girl just looked unhappy and like she had a lot on her mind.
Yu Shen was still a little worried about Xin He, so he took advantage of his free time today to come to Qin's residence. While he was thinking, the fat little girl Xin Nan ran over.
"Brother Shen, are you here to play with Nan'er? Nan'er misses Brother Shen very much. Does Brother Shen miss Nan'er?" The little fat boy said while looking slyly at the servant next to Yu Shen.
Yu Shen couldn't help but laugh. This little fat boy was too fat and was not allowed to eat too much by Ji Wanran in the mansion. The little fat boy begged his sister and brother Shen pitifully to remember to bring him some delicious food.
This is exactly the same as Xinhe's childhood. When Xinhe was a child, she also sneaked around looking for food, especially when she was punished by Yu Shen for studying and practicing martial arts and was not allowed to eat meat, her greedy and helpless look is still funny to think about now.
Therefore, Yu Shen agreed to Xinnan's request, and every time he came to Qin's house, he would bring Xinnan some delicious food from the street to satisfy his cravings.
Yu Shen smiled and signaled to the servant to take out the delicious food he brought to Xinnan. Xinnan excitedly jumped over with a cry and began to eat happily.
Yu Shen patted Xin Nan's bulging belly and said, "Eat less. Be careful that Master's Wife will find out and punish you again." Xin Nan ate while mumbling, "It's okay. Mother has no time to take care of me these days. She won't find out."
Yu Shen frowned and asked, "Where's your sister?" Xin Nan also pointed to the backyard with her little hand holding the chicken drumstick: "My sister is practicing martial arts in the backyard! My sister wants to be a female general, so she has to study hard every day. She is very hardworking."
Seeing that Xin Nan was being taken care of by a servant, Yu Shen pinched Xin Nan's chubby cheeks and said, "Eat slowly here. I'll go see your sister."
After passing a screen wall, Yu Shen entered the back garden of the Qin Mansion. Qin Mingxuan always loved his daughter Xinhe. When his daughter wanted to practice martial arts, Qin Mingxuan specially cleared a piece of open space in the back garden to make a small martial arts training ground for Xinhe.
Yu Shen looked towards the martial arts training ground, but did not see Xinhe. He looked around and saw Xinhe sitting alone on a big rock by the lake, with her head down, doing something unknown.
Yu Shen walked towards the lake, and when he reached the big rock, he chuckled and said, "Why is our female general not practicing martial arts today but lazing around here?"
Xinhe has been feeling uneasy these days. She still can't figure out how to treat her sister who is about to return home.
I heard that Daddy and Mommy went to the other garden to see Sister today. She knew that Daddy was being cautious. But that Sister was not fake, Xinhe knew that very well. After Daddy had interrogated her and confirmed everything, he would definitely bring Sister home.
Thinking of this, Xinhe felt very confused. After practicing alone in the martial arts field for a while, she felt bored and strolled to the lakeside, watching the sunlight shining on the lake, but her mind was not clear.
Suddenly, Yu Shen's voice was heard. Xinhe suddenly raised her head and looked at Yu Shen. Yu Shen, who was standing next to the big rock, had grown into a teenager. He was more deep and reserved. At this moment, he looked very much like the famous Prime Minister Yu in his previous life.
He leaned over to look at Xinhe with a faint smile on his lips. The sunlight at this moment shone on Yu Shen. He did not have the coldness of Yu Shen in his previous life that made people afraid to approach him. Instead, he had such gentleness.
Xin He couldn't help but call out softly, "My Lord." Yu Shen didn't hear clearly, he took a step closer and looked at Xin He, "What are you talking about, sister?"
That smiling face suddenly appeared in front of her. Xin He's heartbeat suddenly accelerated. She shook her head suddenly: "Ah, Brother Shen, why are you here?"
Yu Shen retracted his body and stretched out his hand to pull Xin He: "You just practiced martial arts and worked up a sweat. Why are you sitting by the lake? Don't catch a cold. Come down."
Xin He said "oh" and jumped off the big rock obediently. She patted her dress and looked at Yu Shen: "Brother Shen, you are here to look for daddy, right? Daddy has gone to... the villa. Sister is coming back soon."
Xinhe's voice became lower and lower, and finally she just lowered her head and remained silent.
Yu Shen straightened his sleeves and asked her, "What's wrong with you? Don't you like your sister coming back?" "No, she is my sister. Mother has been waiting for her for a long time."
"Master's wife is looking forward to her, what about you?" Yu Shen continued to ask Xin He. Xin He suddenly raised her head and looked at Yu Shen, but her eyes were suddenly filled with tears: "I... I'm afraid..."
Yu Shen was very surprised by Xinhe's answer. Ever since he met Xinhe, this little girl has always been fearless, otherwise she would not have rushed forward to block the arrow for the Queen.
But why did Xin He have such an attitude when facing her biological sister who was about to return home? Was she afraid? What was she afraid of?
Yu Shen thought that maybe the little girl was afraid that her parents no longer liked her, so he comforted her: "That's your biological sister. After all, she has been away from home for many years. Even after returning home, it is only natural for Master and Master's wife to take better care of her."
"Master and his wife love you so much, how could they neglect you? Besides, you are a princess appointed by the emperor himself, who can bully you?"
"No, it's not like that," Xin He murmured. She looked at Yu Shen: "Brother Shen, do you still remember the dream I told you about?"
Talking about Xinhe’s dream, Yu Shen put away his smile and his face became serious.
Although a long time has passed, Yu Shen still remembers Xinhe's three mysterious incense sticks. At that time, Master Guangji gave them to Xinhe, which enabled her to dream about things from her past life.
When they were young, they relied on Xinhe's dreams to avoid being killed during the Lantern Festival. It had been a long time since Xinhe mentioned the dream of returning to her past life. When he heard Xinhe mention it again today, Yu Shen had to look at Xinhe seriously.
"What's wrong? Did you dream about something again?" Yu Shen asked Xinhe with concern, thinking that she had dreamed about something bad again.
Xin He shook her head: "Brother Shen, if I say that I knew in my dreams that I have a sister, but I have never told anyone, Brother Shen, would you think I am a cruel and bad girl?"
Yu Shen was stunned, but then asked: "When did you dream that you had a sister?"
The tears in Xinhe's eyes finally fell. She felt so uncomfortable holding these words in her heart. She wanted to say them, but she could only say them to Yu Shen.
"It was the dream I had before the Lantern Festival. In the dream, I saw my twin sister being stolen at birth. At that time, Su Peiyun, who stole her, said that she wanted to use the child to take revenge on my father and mother."
"In my dream, I saw Su Peiyun often instilling bad things about the father and mother into the child, making the child hate the father and mother. Later, the danger during the Lantern Festival was actually Su Peiyun's attempt to kidnap me and exchange the stolen child for me."
"Because I learned about her plan in my dream, I borrowed your secret guards to protect me from being kidnapped by them."
Yu Shen asked hesitantly, "What about the past lives you dreamed of? Were they successful?"
"Success!" Xin He couldn't help but shed tears again. "In my previous life, I was ignorant and was harmed by them. Fortunately, my nanny protected me and I escaped without suffering from their murderous hands."
"But they eventually found me and my nanny. My nanny died to protect me, and I lost all my memories. I didn't know who I was. They kidnapped me and planned to sell me to a low-class brothel."
"Luckily I met Uncle Yu on the road. He saved me and sent me to the Dark Guard Camp. I became a Dark Guard. I have no memory, no name, and everyone in the Dark Guard Camp calls me Thirteen!"
"Thirteen!" Yu Shen suddenly seemed to hear someone calling Thirteen's name in grief, and it sounded like his own voice.
He looked around blankly, wondering why he suddenly heard such a voice. He looked at Xin He again: "Did that child return to the Qin Mansion?"
Xin He nodded: "Yes, I disappeared during the Lantern Festival. Later, my parents found me, but that me was not me, but my sister, the child that Su Peiyun stole. Therefore, in her previous life, she was the eldest daughter of the Qin Mansion, Xin He."
Yu Shen suddenly seemed to remember something: "Then I..." Xinhe looked at Yu Shen's expression, wanting to cry and laugh at the same time, and lowered her head.
"Brother Shen found his long-lost good friend. You and Xinhe grew up together as childhood sweethearts, and later you got married after your parents passed away."
Yu Shen suddenly felt a little annoyed at why he asked this question. He rubbed his head a little embarrassedly and then asked, "What about you?"
Xin He raised her head and looked at the lake in the distance, and whispered: "I don't know anything, I only know that it was Uncle Yu who saved me, and I want to repay Uncle Yu well."
"So I was the one who trained the hardest in the Dark Guard Battalion. Later, Uncle Yu also passed away, and you took over the Dark Guard Battalion. You trained us even more strictly. You wanted to avenge my parents and Uncle Yu."
Yu Shen was stunned: "Were they killed by someone?" Xin He nodded: "It was the Cheng Jun Wang in the previous life. The Cheng Jun Wang in this life is different from the Cheng Jun Wang in the previous life."
"Because I know nothing about the affairs of the court. I only know that my parents and Uncle Yu were killed by Prince Cheng. You are assisting the Crown Prince to fight against Prince Cheng and avenge your parents and Uncle Yu."
"You were entrusted by your parents to take good care of Xin He, but you have made too many enemies. In order to protect her, you need to find a substitute to take the heat for her."
Yu Shen suddenly felt a pain in his chest. He asked Xin He blankly, "Who is that stand-in..."
Xin He touched her face and smiled bitterly: "Of course the stand-in is me. I am the twin sister of Xin He. Of course it is me."
Yu Shen covered his heart: "Then you..."
"I died. I died under the sword of Prince Cheng in order to protect you and Xin He. When I woke up again, I became Qin Xin He in the Qin Mansion."
"Later, we went to Guangren Temple to see Master Guangji. The master saw that I had a strange vision, so he gave me the three incense sticks and said that they could help me settle my past life's grudges. But I must not reveal my abnormality at will."
"Brother Shen, you don't know how happy I was when I woke up in the Qin Mansion and saw how much my father and mother loved me. That kind of peace and happiness was something I could never have imagined in my previous life."
"I cherish that kind of happiness so much, so when I knew in my dream that I had a sister, I couldn't tell my parents, because the fragments in the dream were fragmented and there were no clues to follow."
"More importantly, I don't want that sister to come back. She was taught badly by her adoptive mother in her previous life. In fact, she knew who I was in her previous life, but she didn't recognize me and wanted to harm me."
"If she came back she would take away all the happiness I had. I didn't want her to come back so I never told anyone anything about her."
"I am a selfish person. I don't want my happiness to be taken away by others. You don't know, Brother Shen, I don't even have any memories of my previous life. I only remember the cruel training in the Dark Guard Camp. After becoming a stand-in, I faced all kinds of open and secret attacks again and again. In the end, I, the stand-in, died alone."
"Brother Shen, I'm afraid. I'm afraid that I will become Thirteen again, the one with no family, no friends, and nothing. I don't want to be Thirteen. I want to be Qin Xinhe. I am the real Qin Xinhe."
Xinhe finally finished speaking. She glanced at Yu Shen. Perhaps after hearing everything she said, Brother Shen would no longer pay attention to her. What a vicious and selfish person she was!
"Brother Shen, I'm done. I feel so uncomfortable holding these words in my heart. I despise myself, but I don't regret what I did. You see, I am just that bad."
Xinhe wiped the tears from her face with her hands, turned her head away from looking at Yu Shen, and finally said everything. She seemed to feel a little relieved, but why did her heart still hurt so much?
Xinhe waited for a long time, but didn't hear Yu Shen speak, and there was no movement around her. She turned her head and looked at Yu Shen in surprise.
Yu Shen seemed to have not yet reacted to Xinhe's words. He was still staring at Xinhe blankly, looking a little silly.
The fifteen-year-old Yu Shen was still different from the Yu Prime Minister in his previous life. Xin He called out softly again: "Brother Shen, you..."